Thursday, May 10, 2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHeO-4Ad9IA (Credit to Ciaran this is his idea and probably will do the same on his blog)

Ch. 25-26

I don't want to write these anymore. There's nothing more to really say or that I want to talk about. I already feel that this was a bad idea and it has led me to wind up in a resthome. All the people here ask me impossible questions, stuff that I just cant answer. My brother, DB, shows up once in a while and dosen't ask as many questions as the Physcoanalyst but they tend to be the hardest to answer. I guess I've learned and wanna share that you never share your story with anyone or you begin to miss everyone from the story. I honestly miss every person and I will probably never see some of them again which is very depressing to face sometimes but luckily i have found another quote to help me through tough times. “Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. Christopher Robin to Pooh” -A. A. Milne

Ch. 23-24

I don't know where to turn anymore! I can't go home because of my parents and I don't have money for a hotel and after what just happened my last safe haven is definitely out of the picture. What was Mr. Antolini doing? Is he homosexual? I don't know what I would do if the one person I have looked up to outside my family ends up being a phony. After the incident with James Castle I never would have expected this from him. Maybe he was drunk though for Christssake I don't need to jump to the worst case scenario. One thing I do know is the quote he gave me will forever stick with me. I think Mr. Antolini would've liked this quote by Senator John Kerry because of its simplicity and how it suggests to stick to your cause and your values, just like the quote he gave me suggests. “Values are not just words, values are what we live by. They're about the causes that we champion and the people we fight for.” Senator John Kerry quotes http://thinkexist.com/quotation/values-are-not-just-words-values-are-what-we-live/354930.html

Ch. 17-20

Wow I can't believe I just wasted that much time watching the stupid Radio City Rockettes and their stage show. The guy after that was even worse all he did was roller skate under tables and try to tell funny jokes. I guess if the situation was different and I wasn't in such a depressed state I might have found it humorous but not tonight. All of this was accompanied by a happy memory of mine. i couldn't help but recall the Kettledrummer from the Orchestra that both Allie and myself adored since we were 8. My brother and I even got up close enough to take a picture of him. We even tried to send him a postcard when we went to Washington, but I doubt he got it because my brother addressed it to "Kettledrummer" 

Ch. 7-10

I haven't been in this hotel very long but I have already discovered that even if I had worn my red hunting cap when i checked in I wouldn't have looked as messed as some of the people I have just seen. First off why would someone cross-dress in their hotel room with the blinds up? Secondly, The person must be a huge phony if they want to change their gender so much. After seeing that horror show I was off to the lavender room where the corny band was playing but I started to dance with this girl anyway. Damn that girl was a great dancer almost as good as good ol' Phoebe but not quite. I couldn't stop thinking about Phoebe and how she was such an amazing dancer while only being in the 4th grade the whole time I was dancing with that dopey girl, it must be a Seattle thing. Maybe in that part of the country they spend more time in Dance studios than actual schools. Maybe even this school http://www.danceinseattle.com/

Ch 15-16

The Museum of Natural History is such a great place, I absolutely love it! I miss going there so often to see the Indians and the birds, but the largest thing I miss is the fact that nothing changed. No matter how often I went back to see the Indians they were exactly the same as they were the way they were when I had left last time. There was only one thing that was different was you, and I don't just mean age I just mean in any way possible. I can't believe good old Phoebe is doing the same exact thing I used to do so many years ago seeing the same exact Indians in the same posses but every time she became a little more different. This wasn't depressing but I really hope she doesn't turn out like I have turned out.

Ch. 11-14

I can't believe how depressed I am right now, I never even knew it was possible to be this depressed. Tonight has not been my night at all, I can't believe how childish I was when the prostitute came by. I'm actually kind of happy she left it seemed like she said Hey after every single sentence! Good thing I got my Cigarettes and Allie, good old Allie. I could talk to him for hours, what was foremost on my mind however was trying to apoligize for leaving him behind when a friend and I went out to play with our BB guns; I bet Allie would have loved to try to shoot at some random stuff. I wish I could have gotten him his own BB gun, maybe one that looks like this.

Ch 4-6

Stradlater really pisses me off sometimes! I can't believe how much of a Phony he is; I'm the one flunking out of school and he wants me to write him a freaking English essay?! Then to top that he tells me to not make it too good or anything and make sure I leave out some punctuation. How hard could it be for him to take some time out of his day to watch how to correctly punctuate a sentence? He could just watch this, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcQ_KK4jFZs just 6 minutes out of his day and he could learn how to punctuate sentences on his own. Somehow Stradlater finds a way to top this, the whole reason this conversation comes up is because he is going on a date with Jane! She is such an awesome girl yet,when I tell Stradlater about some of the little things I like about her such as what she does with her kings in checkers he just blows it off and seems uninterested. Well at least Ackley is here now i can get my mind off this whole thing.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Ch 21-22

After seeing my baby sister today I was reminded of the innocence of children. However, the positive feeling also comes with the realization that the innocence can be taken away in a few mere minutes and it also carries a depressing memory that I have tried to hide away. Its been almost a year since James Castle tragically jumped out of the window of his dorm room after being bullied vigorously by his peers at my previous school. I feel so bad for him and his family, how his innocence was taking from him. I MEAN GODDAMMIT SOMEONE SHOULD'VE DONE SOMETHING ABOUT IT! That's going to be my goal now I'm going to protect the innocence in kids, I'm going to be the catcher in the rye just like in the Robert Burn's poem "coming thro' the rye" which i always believed said "If a body catch a body comin through the rye." but according to my sister its meet not catchand believe it or not shes right i looked it up http://www.worldburnsclub.com/poems/translations/coming_through_the_rye.htm, it must of been that little kid that was singing it in the street that made me think it was catch. But even though shes right that's besides the point my goal will remain the same with my own interpretation of the poem.